Because All i See Is A Shattered Conscience Staring Right Back At Me
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Part Bs '09
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Sunday, February 07, 2010 - 8:13 PM tomorrow = Chinese + SS test i just wasted my weekends utubing away. i thought i didnt have any homework. due on monday. but then, i realised i do. and the worst thing is that im gonna be quite busy this week and i still havent thought of how to settle homework due this week. and the 3 tests. and smp stuff. i shouldnt have joined smp. i kinda regret. like a little. i didnt know it requires this much commitment... oh well what can i do ill just bear with it for 6months. i watched grey's anatomy season 1 last week. although i havent finished watching all the eps. i think what grey says is quite meaningful. for example, everyone has their own circles drawn around them, a line that separates them from others. i used to think a true friend is someone who successfully crosses another friend's line, like someone who knows you inside out. but then, would you want anyone to know about your every advantage, your every flaw? obviously not. and the same vice versa. i realised once i know too much about someone's character and personality, i tend to find out about their flaws and imperfection. it really pushes me to the extent of labelling my own friend as 'ugly'. sometimes, i look back at the days when i didnt know much about her and when she was my best friend, someone i looked up too perhaps. curious, i wanted to know more about her. i wanted to become that friend who understands her best, that friend who knows her everything. i didnt know, there was a price to pay. this is why we have to maintain a visible line that fences out people who try to cross the line, something that tells others- we are friends, thus we show and let one another know where they stand outside our circles. best friends are the ones who respect this most. they try their best to tiptoe on the line no matter how much effort it takes. these are friends that form our social circles. not that i've lost a friend or anything, but i've got to do something before that happens. glancing through 8days...
Monday, January 25, 2010 - 11:02 PM 
whether or not it's a rash thought : (im supp to be specific) LG lollipop phone reebok specs trip to taiwan, korea, japan, australia levi's jeans levi's shoes blackberry bold 9700 treadmill / gym membership card shades dance lessons sleek stunning high quality earphones shinee and show lo's album ramen @ santouka, ippudo and some great sapporo ramen wireless notebook internet accessibility in phone shinee autograph show's 'stage' cap minho's colourful squares Tshirt black camera with wide lens normal digital cam interview with elmo krav maga or B jiu jitsu lessons karaoke set at home detective conan full series that's all. not they're all very random and off the cuff and they're all very possible to achieve that's if im crazy. Today Kara asked whaddya wanna be when you grow up? me: I wanna be rich. rich, rich. when i grow up. kara: what are you? materialist? me: why do you assume that ppl who wanna earn big bucks are ppl who have no feelings? and what's with materialism? kara: idk... wrong impression? i guess? whatever... and we continued walking... so, what caused this impression? isnt it good to earn big bucks? it must feel great...?! if i dont earn money in future, where will my family live? where will charities get their $$ from? singapore's economy? ...??? so, i aspire to earn lots of money in the future. . . . the end. this damn cool chinese idiom
12:25 AM 说了又不听 听了又不懂 不懂又不问 问了又不做 做了又做错 错了又不认 认了又不改 改了又不服 不服又不说 ［俗语］ 怪人不知礼 知礼人不怪 saw this on fb. omg isnt it damn cool? =D Popeyes
Sunday, January 24, 2010 - 5:54 PM
Sec 3 life has been real busy so far. the sudden increase in subjects, homework and tests... sigh... gosh i've really deproved lots cant even do 18 pull ups i guess i put on weight but then again i should have improved, not deproved! D= how i wish i can download detective conan episodes and watch them on my phone... fucking losers
Friday, January 15, 2010 - 11:18 PM WHAT THE FUCK someone came knocking the shit out of our door accusing us of shooting laser at his house. HELLO I WAS SLEEPING UNTIL YOU PIECE OF SHIT CAME RINGING THE DOORBELL LIKE SOME MAD MAN ATTEMPTING TO CRASH MY DOOR. and my bro was like, sitting in the dark room listening to his bursting volumes of music and playing dota pretending he cant hear the doorbell. "eh you dont pretend pretend ah. im going to call the police" fuck off man what can the police do? nothing. no evidence nothing. not even the laser itself. hah. stupid man with obvious balding symptoms. get lost. what is his problem? "used binoculars to see, im sure it's from your unit" HOW CAN IT BE? omg i would like to see him come before our house looking apologetic after he (might never) realise it was his wrong. and now i think of it, that's quite dumb. lol. i hope the laser gets into his eye while he looks in his binoculars and get instant blindness. happy ending. wake up... your idea?
Thursday, January 14, 2010 - 11:13 PM WAKE UP WAKE UP GOTTA WAKE UP! AC is 2 months away and today, i realised how unprepared i am. it's true, our standards have dropped. my personal standards dropped too. especially doing pushups and drills. i cant do as many pushups in one go like how i used to be able to and my marching/ timing is so horrible i can kinda understand what they mean. i swear ill train more. (or is this just a temporary rash thought?) i remember when i used to be so above everyone else in terms of physical fitness. but the others are catching up. so quickly. i slacked too much? Juniors. yet another worry. what to do with them? we ourselves are not up to standard, not to mention them? and how bout the newcomers... the AC briefings... balanced with school work... tests... ......... so fed up. i really wonder how many pltnmates or how many of them actually worry like i do it's not too early, im sure to say, not anymore... start train, start thinking... hoping AC 2010 would go well (although obviously AC is like... 'go well? right...') "please dont join ncc"
Thursday, January 07, 2010 - 9:03 PM long time since i last blogged why? coz im busy lately with ncc and sch-reopens-stuff to settle gosh the ncc craze period is finally over everyday my mum is nagging about having to wash my pt kit and no.4 ... i still have to finish my math and ss hmwk and then memo my chem and then finish reading the last 6 chpt of TFA then i can go sleep a lot to do? i only have 2 more hours left so i shall end here and continue another day. a mess in front of me
Monday, December 28, 2009 - 11:59 PM pleasedontgetbooked pleasedontgetbooked pleasedontgetbooked i dont know what to do with my hair. so screwed gaahagahaghah cant pin it up coz it's too short. hopefully i wont get booked. hopefully? i gotta wake up at 545 tmr morning so i can go to sch in my dad's car so super early right sigh i just cut my super long nails away random hope tmr will turn out well. gosh... |
